‘I really want to help you.’ That’s what she said, my shrink. ‘But at this point, I don’t think I can. The way I see it, there are two options. One; You’ll get some common sense, or Two; Things will get so far out of hand that you’ll get hospitalized, or die.’ Outch… that hurts! It hurts mostly because she’s right. I know... I should have never started losing weight again. At first, my intention was to loose 4 lbs, in a healthy way. I forgot the healthy stuff right before breakfast. I searched for something to eat, but all I saw was fat, carbs, and cals. So I didn’t have breakfast. I didn’t have lunch. I only had dinner. The next day I decided not to eat anything, and I did. I felt so great!And when I stood on the scale, I saw the results. So I went on. 4 lbs wasn’t enough. I had to loose 6, and 6 became 8, and 8 became 10. And now, I loss 25 lbs. Not that it’s dramatic, I’m not extremely thin if you think so! I’m still fat, just a few lbs lighter. I started at 170 lbs, and now, I’m down to 145. But that’s not all. I’m going down to 100, and eventually to 75. My BMI will be 11, and life will be perfect. I’m noticing already, people are talking to me, they like me, and guys are flirting with me. They never did that when I weighed 170… never! They hated me, the only form of attention they gave me, was when they told me I was fat. And well… they don’t do that anymore! They like me, and when I reached my goal, and weigh 75lbs, they’ll like me even more. And then life will be perfect!I just can’t wait to see my bones stick out, to see my hipbones, my ribs. I can see them already, but it’s not good enough yet. And there are more bones to see. I want to see them all! And yeah, maybe, when I’m at my goal weight, I’ll get hospitalized, maybe I’ll even die. But when I do, I’ll know that I have lived. Cause life can never be so perfect when you’re fat. Pro-Ana life is the lifestyle everyone should have. It’s a pity that most people aren’t strong enough for it.
22 comments:
when i lost weight this one guy started talking to me but I gained it all back (40 effin' pounds) and that guy doesn't even look at me :(
before you judge me as someone who doesn't have a clue, i too am pro ana. and mia. but 75lbs is way too thin, not even i would consider that pretty, and neither will ANY boy.
and please don't stop going to the shrink cuz even though they can get REALLY annoying they DO help you in the end...don'T give up. stay strong. you won't be at 75lbs.
stupido
they say too much of a good thing is bad being too thin is the same as being too fat its ugly either way so think about that before u try to lose anymore
That's kind of my life..
This is absolutely sickening! It's one thing to lose weight, but to get so thin that your ribs and bones stick out is just revolting. Guys may flirt with you now, but when they see how sickening you're gonna get they will be scared of you. Oh god,, if only you'd listen to someone. You need help!
145 is still really fat.
My sister died because of you. Thanks alot!
we guys dont even like skiny girls we go for a girl with some boob and butt thats why right now thire flirting with you, i like girls about 130 or so
I suppose it's evolution..
No that shrink couldn't do anything, 100%, because you didn't want help.. It's not until YOU want to be HELPED, that you can change.
Hard to say, but in evolution, the weak died and they keep dying everyday. Either you are strong or not.
But I believe that the mind/body comes to a stage, that it realizes that it needs help and accepts the help. The rest, well..
Survival of the fittest. FIT as in IN SHAPE and NOT as in "I barely have energy enough to breathe."
is it ok if i use this for a project? no personal info will be invovled? get back to me thanks
Hey i understand !!!! i understand and i completely wish i was as free as you. i am 170 and i know i am fat. I got this way from being scared of Ana. Now i want to go back so if you want to them go for it. The Anas out there like you and me will understand visit my blog Ana knows best!!:D
I myself am a proud member of team ana. (Still have to make my bracelet) I'm definately going to follow this blog and hopefully i hear from u. soon.
YOU GUYS ARE FUCKKKKKEEEDDDDD EAT SOME FUCKING CAKE. IT TASTES SO FUCKING GOOD AND I FUCKING LOVE FOOD, FUCKED UP SICK PEOPLE
erin ur a dumb bitch!.... she is good the way she is now..
These comments suck ass. She KNOWS what she wants and there's no point in criticizing because she will see how things progress herself.Being fat like ME sucks and there's so much pain that comes along with it.It's her body .Let her find a weight she feel comfortable with and offer support and be a FRIEND in the meantime. You guys need to fuck off and leave her alone!!She KNOWS the consequences AND the benefits. Xx Yvonne
I'm 114lbs and I'm trying to get to 69lbs so fuck off Ana will be with me every step of the way and I know that I can trust her she has proven herself to me unlike my shrink or any Ana hater I've ever talked to face to face
Fuck you ilovefood...Ana is amazing!!!! N all of us proanas will do wat we want so shut up it makes me sick to think of how disgusting and at you are because you love food
that diary was amazing.
i support you
I'm working really hard to get to 110 or 100 :/ I know I know thats still "Fat" to most of you but my doctor thinks that realistic for my height and age.. right now I'm 153.8... I cried for an hour today when i stepped on the scale.. I just need help from someone on here.. I haven't eaten in a week..
im really ugly when im overweight. I look better when i look 'sick' as in emaciated pale i have the bad flu sick. But its just because of stress and not eating. I get too depressed and become extremely inactive which makes me put on weight. Its summer here and i totally hate myself so i am hoping exercising (running and weights) every day up until christmas)which is three and half weeks away) will see me look better by xmas day. Can i do this? is it possible? i will keep going. By february if i perform miracles i will look nice and sick again:(I love this site. I hope it helps me. And if it does i will be lvoing you forever.x
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