‘I really want to help you.’ That’s what she said, my shrink. ‘But at this point, I don’t think I can. The way I see it, there are two options. One; You’ll get some common sense, or Two; Things will get so far out of hand that you’ll get hospitalized, or die.’ Outch… that hurts! It hurts mostly because she’s right. I know... I should have never started losing weight again. At first, my intention was to loose 4 lbs, in a healthy way. I forgot the healthy stuff right before breakfast. I searched for something to eat, but all I saw was fat, carbs, and cals. So I didn’t have breakfast. I didn’t have lunch. I only had dinner. The next day I decided not to eat anything, and I did. I felt so great!And when I stood on the scale, I saw the results. So I went on. 4 lbs wasn’t enough. I had to loose 6, and 6 became 8, and 8 became 10. And now, I loss 25 lbs. Not that it’s dramatic, I’m not extremely thin if you think so! I’m still fat, just a few lbs lighter. I started at 170 lbs, and now, I’m down to 145. But that’s not all. I’m going down to 100, and eventually to 75. My BMI will be 11, and life will be perfect. I’m noticing already, people are talking to me, they like me, and guys are flirting with me. They never did that when I weighed 170… never! They hated me, the only form of attention they gave me, was when they told me I was fat. And well… they don’t do that anymore! They like me, and when I reached my goal, and weigh 75lbs, they’ll like me even more. And then life will be perfect!I just can’t wait to see my bones stick out, to see my hipbones, my ribs. I can see them already, but it’s not good enough yet. And there are more bones to see. I want to see them all! And yeah, maybe, when I’m at my goal weight, I’ll get hospitalized, maybe I’ll even die. But when I do, I’ll know that I have lived. Cause life can never be so perfect when you’re fat. Pro-Ana life is the lifestyle everyone should have. It’s a pity that most people aren’t strong enough for it.